song a week

by Erin Bower

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I challenged myself to write a song a week, officially starting in mid-March, 2015.

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released April 5, 2015

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Erin Bower California

Writing is how I figure out the mess inside my head. I know it isn't earth-shattering, but it is mine and I am doing it.

Teach me something, please. Share with me. I am still learning.

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Track Name: the turnover
what is this flutter between the ins and outs?
what is this stutter? you need to spit it out
you can't wait forever until you feel sure
you can't wait forever in that turnover

that turnover will haunt you, you know that he meant what he said
that turnover will haunt you, if you let it fuck with your head
you can't wait forever until you feel sure
you can't wait forever in that turnover

girl why are you frettin? you're stressin me out
stop your second-guessin, figure it out
you can't wait forever until you feel sure
you can't wait forever in that turnover

that turnover will haunt you, you know that he meant what he said
that turnover will haunt you, if you let it fuck with your head
you can't wait forever until you feel sure
you can't wait forever in that turnover

that turnover will haunt you, that turnover will fuck with your head
that turnover will haunt you, you know that he meant what he said
you can't wait forever until you feel sure
you can't wait forever in that turnover

in the turnover
Track Name: sweepin in the wind
they like sweepin in the wind
startin restartin those piles again

you make it easy to stay here now
i love it when we stay here now
you make it easy to stay here now
oh baby wont you stay here now

i watched the moon crawl late last night
trough my awning a burning light

you make it easy to stay here now
i love it when we stay here now
you make it easy to stay here now
oh baby wont you stay here now

there is a portion of the morning
that my dreams will never meet
Track Name: lay my head down
lay my head down in your lap
lay my head down in your lap
i want to lay my head down in your lap
and we'll talk until the morning with my head in your lap
yeah we'll talk until the morning with my head in your lap

driving again that damn song stuck in my head
about her first kiss and what it never meant
bats are chirping around the cellar
uninvited guests, please don't tell her

lay my head down in your lap
lay my head down in your lap
i want to lay my head down in your lap
and we'll talk until the morning with my head in your lap
yeah we'll talk until the morning with my head in your lap

if you can help it, and oh i think you can
please sit still dear you are a pillar in the sand
crooked branches beg me from above
slow your breathing like a woman who knows she's loved

lay my head down in your lap
lay my head down in your lap
i want to lay my head down in your lap
and we'll talk until the morning with my head in your lap
yeah we'll talk until the morning with my head in your lap
Track Name: grateful
like a dream you whispered to me
when i was least listening
you said love must start somewhere

picture the world just as you want it
we'll get there together
good's gotta start somewhere

oh, oh, oh
too grateful for words
too grateful for words

out at sea i had a lost longing
yeah my bones were aching
oh to be grateful

oh, oh, oh
too grateful for words
too grateful for words
Track Name: i have a lover
i have a lover
i love him so
he asked this morning
if i would go
the wide world over
hand in hand
but you know i cant
you know i cant

i cannot promise
i will be worthy
how can you promise
infinity
low start in this world
i was colored blue
to wed is for the rich
and the happy fools

i have a lover
i love him so
he asked this morning
if i would go
the wide world over
hand in hand
but you know i cant
you know i cant

i hate my eyes
for finding your name
i hate these houses
they're all the same
i hate my lips
for tellin you shit
if i set fire
i wont have to quit
i wont have to quit
if i set fire
i wont have to quit
Track Name: next time (birthday song)
next time that i see your face
i'm gonna bottle up your laugh
hand it out to the masses
next time that i see your face
i'm gonna kiss you a hundred times
til i fog up my glasses
next time that i see your face
i'm gonna bring six marching bands
embarrass you in front of all your friends

and we'll sing, we'll sing
we love you, we love you
happy birthday to you

next time that i see your face
i'm gonna call up the news
tell em i found the best one
next time that i see your face
i'm gonna leave all my frowns
make sure we have the most fun
next time that i see your face
i'm gonna bring ten marching bands
embarrass you in front of all your friends

and we'll sing
i love you, i love you
happy birthday to you
Track Name: same home
all who don't know
know better than we do

and we'll all go to the same home

hey watch this, i can kill a man
i can kill a man with just one hand
fourteen billion hands

hey watch this, i can save a man
i can save a man with just one hand
fourteen billion hands

and we'll all go to the same home

hey watch this, i can build the land
i can build the land with just one hand
fourteen billion hands

hey watch this, i can tear the land
i can tear the land from all of their hands
fourteen billion hands

and we'll all go to the same home

hey watch this, he can make a grand
he can make a grand with just one hand
fourteen billion hands

hey watch this, i can steal his grand
i can steal his grand with just one hand
fourteen billion hands


and we'll all go to the same home

hey watch this, i can kill a man
Track Name: please don't go
i don't want you to go
we're too young to even know
oh please don't go

i felt you holding on so tight
when you thought i was asleep last night
will we be alright?

though my heart it knows
everybody goes

oh please don't go
oh please don't go
i just need more time
stay, my love, stay
please don't go

i guess there is no choice
you just keep on singin til you got no voice
lost to the noise

in seventeen days i had not lied
until i saw you laughin in her eyes
the well is dry

though my heart it knows
everybody goes

oh please don't go
oh please don't go
i just need more time
stay, my love, stay
please don't go
Track Name: slow it down
you can take a step, then wait
it's not a race, not a race
unless you're racing to your grave

you can let it down with me
it won't destroy the fantasy
of being brave, being brave

no, you're not the only one
terrified of what you can't see

slow it down
bring it back to the ground
when's the last time you breathed?
when's the last time you really looked at me?
don't lose it now, don't lose it oh darlin

you can take a step then wait
it's not a race, not a race
unless you're racing to your grave

you can say the wrong thing twice
and i'll sing my trite advice
let your thoughts out of the cave

no, you're not the only one
terrified of what you can't see

slow it down
bring it back to the ground
when's the last time you breathed?
when's the last time you really looked at me?
don't lose it now, don't lose it oh darlin

we're in the clear
bring it on over here
when's the last time we smiled?
when's the last time you looked me in the eyes?
don't lose it now, don't lose it oh darlin

no, you're not the only one
standing on the edge of what you can't see

slow it down
bring it back to the ground
when's the last time you breathed?
when's the last time you really looked at me?
don't lose it now, don't lose it oh darlin

we're in the clear
bring it on over here
when's the last time we smiled?
when's the last time you really looked me in the eyes?
don't lose it now, don't lose it oh darlin

you can take a step, then wait
it's not a race, it's not a race
unless you're racing to your grave
Track Name: let me in
if you find yourself on the huckleberry trail
you should lose yourself on the huckleberry trail

don't fret love
though the trees make rain from the morning dew
don't fret love
though your eyes are tired i will guide you
shadows cast from lovers past
i won't let them chase me away
don't fret love

just let me in and i'll be good to you
let me in and i'll be good to you
let me in
let me in

ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba

don't fret love
though your sky is blurred a dark shade of blue
don't fret love
though the night is cold i will hold you
shadows cast from lovers past
i won't let them chase me away
don't fret love

just let me in and i'll be good to you
let me in and i'll be good to you
let me in and i'll be good to you
let me in
let me in

ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba ba

if you find yourself on the huckleberry trail
you should lose yourself on the huckleberry trail
Track Name: figure it out
pick at my sleeve, fumble my keys
i shiver, i fake
cold nights will bring me to you
how many crawling country backroads
must i pretend to forget to know

you and i, i can't quite figure it out
you and i, i sure try to figure it out

i've been blanking my slate, stalling for days
just to exist next to you
you know, i would do anything i can
just to, by chance, brush hands with you again
Track Name: polyamorous polygon
when you love someone who loves
someone who loves someone
who loves someone who loves
someone who loves someone

that's when you tend
your dignified indifference

when you love someone who loves
someone who loves someone
who loves someone who loves
someone who loves someone

that's when you speak
in metaphor hyperbole

when you love someone who loves
someone who loves someone
who loves someone who loves
someone who loves someone

that's when you found
you gotta get the fuck out of this lexus town

when you love someone who loves
someone who loves someone
who loves someone who loves
someone who loves someone

that's when you called
'for a good time' in the bathroom stall

when you love someone who loves
someone who loves someone
who loves someone who loves
someone who loves someone

that's when you tend
your dignified indifference
Track Name: sometime
how do you fight the dark inside, i
can't find a way to hold on light
and is everyone better at hiding the dark inside, i
can't find a way to make it feel right

i know they watched me die
it'll catch up to me sometime
new hands hold tight
it'll catch up to me sometime

i don't know love just a version of it, i
can't find a way to hold on light
i don't know love just aversion to it, i
can't find a way to make it feel right

i know they watched me die
it'll catch up to me sometime
new hands hold tight
it'll catch up to me sometime

i am only a shell of myself
waitin for my fill
i am only a shell of myself
do you want me still

i know they watched me die
it'll catch up to me sometime
new hands hold tight
it'll catch up to me sometime
Track Name: hazel blue
fall in love with your long black skirt
how i need your hurt
chase you through the gold and leaves
you really got a hold on me

hazel, look what you made me do
hazel, made me hazel blue
hazel, look what you made me done
hazel, go and get my gun

burrow cicadas in the floorboards here
deafen in the darkness dear
echo the walls what you would write
if we were alone tonight

hazel, look what you made me do
hazel, made me hazel blue
hazel, look what you made me done
hazel, go and get my gun

you know i never meant it, i never meant
hazel, break the handle, paint it red

hazel, look what you made me do
hazel, made me hazel blue
hazel, look what you made me done
hazel, go and get my gun
Track Name: share
pickin his hands he sits and sits
and worries of all his called-it-quits
he pretends he cannot see
the poor girl hangin from his tree

and he won't share
he never shared

he'll die in his drywall compartment
with his curtains and his carpets
he's an eggshell in a carton
who forgot how to share
forgot how to share

their arms are full but they want more
and they'll take it all like they did before
fat bodies in country club tombs
still peekin, who's stone is bigger than whom's?

and they won't share
they never shared

they'll die in their drywall compartments
with their curtains and their carpets
they are eggshells in cartons
who forgot how to share
forgot how to share

we'll die in our drywall compartments
with our curtains and our carpets
we are eggshells in cartons
who forgot how to share
Track Name: i am not
there's a hum, electric blood
you still fill up my veins
but once again, my calloused hands
are pullin on the reigns
the push the pull, my mouth is full
of words i can't explain
so i chase away the perfect day
my broken mind's refrain

maybe this one won't end up so bad
maybe this one won't end up so bad

and i tell myself
this day won't end up so bad
you'll find a way to make it through the sad
and i know it was me
i am not the lover you need
i am not the lover you need.

how do you manage to
look at me at all
gentle smile, somber eyes
can make me feel so small
i was trying to keep you blind
an unexpected call
resentment grows, i hope you know
i never meant to fall

maybe this one won't end up so bad
maybe this one won't end up so bad

and i tell myself
this one won't end up so bad
you'll find a way to make it through the sad
and i know it was me
i am not the lover you need
i am not the lover you need.

i am sorry love
Track Name: can do
I learned from the ponderosa pine
If there's nothing you can do, then there's nothing you can do
Sometimes we gotta be washed out by the fire
If there's nothing you can do, then there's nothing you can do

Am I losing my mind?
Nothing you can do, no there's nothing you can do

I learned from the river and the sea
If there's nothing you can do, then there's nothing you can do
All our best will drain to the sound of gravity
If there's nothing you can do, then there's nothing you can do

Please just roll off my back
If there's nothing you can do, then there's nothing you can do

I learned from the sticky lemon tree
If there's nothing you can do, then there's nothing you can do
Thorns may scare a timid heart but it doesn't mean a thing
If there's nothing you can do, then there's nothing you can do

Have I found my soul?
If there's nothing you can do, then there's nothing you can do
Track Name: heavy
Oh, why do I feel so heavy?

Hummingbird, hummingbird, teach me to be light.
I took the wings of a hummingbird, still can't get it right.

Oh, why do I feel so heavy?

Sorry stones, sorry stones, into my heart I stow.
They weigh my soul down, so I tear it out. Still can't let them go.
Track Name: fleeting happiness
I've got to memorize your face
This fleeting happiness, fleeting happiness
And why can't it last?
This fleeting happiness, fleeting happiness

Cuz you can paint the leaves but it won't stop the fall.
Cuz you can paint the leaves but it won't stop the fall.

I am holding something in my hands
This fleeting happiness, fleeting happiness
I am holding someone in my hands
This fleeting happiness, fleeting happiness

Cuz you can paint the leaves but it won't stop the fall.
Cuz you can paint the leaves but it won't stop the fall.

Won't forget the way you are now
I'm never gonna let you down
This fleeting happiness
Won't forget the way you are now
You're never gonna catch me down
This fleeting happiness

Cuz you can paint the leaves but it won't stop the fall.
Cuz you can paint the leaves but it won't stop the fall.
Track Name: shadow song
You can climb the mountains above us
You can cast your troubles to the sea
You can fly the mad world to find it
Ever you go, there I'll be

You can marvel everything that's given
You can take much more than you need
You can fly the mad world to find it
Ever you go, there I'll be

You can rest your bones til you're able
You can work to death like a bee
You can fly the mad world to find it
Ever you go, there I'll be

You can hide in the dark til it's over
You can run your whole life from me
You can fly the mad world to find it
Ever you go, there I'll be

You can pawn your soul to a devil
You can live pretending that you're free
You can fly the mad world to find it
Ever you go, there I'll be